open sesame

Suddenly.

Something flooded into me. Something I could never understand. Something I could never imagine. Something I wished never happened.

I groped for answers. For answers. And to hell with my I-don’t-knows.

System paralyzed. Over and over.

Stop it.

It made me want to scream.

To burst.

To explode.

And when happiness seemed to be a vapor. A vapor.

Something that I could see. But could not grasp.

And when.

Until when.

Did nothing but pierced me.

Impaired.

Embracing stupor.

Please. Spare me.

I.

I am fading away.

Hanging by a thread.